My Dick Grew So Big! – Transcript
My dick grew so big! It is rare to hear men be able to articulate the relationship they have with their cocks. In today’s interview with Well-F**ked All Star Pracarsh, who lives in India, he does this in a way I have never heard before, which is why I had to have him on the podcast.
His cock self-awareness is next level. A cock that exists interdimensionally can heal and fuck its woman from the other side of the planet. A cock that grows organically. A cock that healed its circumcision trauma and now heals his woman. A cock that acts as a divining rod and compass in life. A cock that is an extension of his masculine power.
This episode is a deep insight into the inner workings of a supercock for those of us who truly, madly, deeply love cock and the men attached to them.
***My Dick Grew So Big! All Star Interview***
KIM: Welcome, Pracarsh, all the way from India today.
PRACARSH: Thank you, Kim. Happy to be here.
KIM: You stood out to me in our last round of the Coming Together Salon because you had such a delightful way of talking about your breakthroughs and you were so excited. I really wanted to share you and your energy and your enthusiasm with our listeners.
PRACARSH: Of course. Thank you so much.
KIM: So tell me about some of the breakthrough experiences you had in the salon. You had some in particular around your cock and its expression in the world and in your woman and in your relationship in general. What inspired you in the beginning to sign up for the salon? How did you hear about my work?
PRACARSH: Well, I heard about your work through my wife. She had been following you for almost two or three years very silently. She was very intimidated, actually, to even bring it up to me. Or actually, she was more intimidated to fully realize this in herself. She wondered if it was possible for her or if it was just a bunch of women in a closed society, just leading their own lives.
So she brought me to this work, and I responded. Kim, honestly, there is no big story there. It just felt right for me. I’ve always been quite sexual in terms of moving my energy within me. I have a very sexual way of looking at life. I find that everything is always in sex, so this felt very natural to me, and this also felt like, “Okay, this is my chance to grow myself for me and for our relationship.”
That’s how I came to your work.
I’ll give you some background about my cock before I talk about what happened. I think when I was seven or eight years old, I had something happen, and I was circumcised at seven or eight years old, so I have a scar. I did not know before I joined your course that the scar could actually mean something. That it could mean a blockage in energy or trauma being stored there.
But what it was for me was my dick being really sad and not being able to feel love and joy.
And I remember my previous relationship became a very mechanical one. Even though it started from a place of love, it became super mechanical. I did not listen to my dick at all. I was not letting it lead me. I was being dissociated from it, and that ended up harming it even more.
That’s one of the reasons I feel like it literally shrunk, both in energy and in its physical expression. One of the first things that really transformed me was the immense love that Carla, my wife, gave my cock. She would literally just be down there whispering to him and talking to him.
KIM: Writing love letters.
PRACARSH: Totally. Whenever I would hold her head or try to move her mouth closer to my cock, she would just say, “Leave it. It’s between him and me right now. You stay out of this.”
KIM: [Laughs]
PRACARSH: And that’s actually true. He is an independent me. I feel like I am dependent on him. He is the landlord. I am renting this other space attached to him, honestly.
Because my wife developed this beautiful relationship with my cock very initially, she would talk to him, kiss him, and give him love. She would keep massaging the tissue, so the lingam massages really helped, even though initially I would feel almost nothing. But that was a block. I was carrying so many blocks that I was not able to feel what she was giving me. I was not able to receive, in fact. I was able to give quite easily, but reception was really hard for me.
So her showing my cock so much love, so much care, and having her own relationship with him really brought him alive because my cock was very upset with me. It was saying, “This guy has not taken care of me; he has put me in situations that I would not like to have to be in.” So it’s like, “Okay, this woman is actually in my energy, she’s loving me, and I’ll talk to her.”
KIM: I love that. Oh, that’s incredible to observe and to tune into that.
PRACARSH: Yeah, yeah. That happened very naturally, and I think then was the time when I started feeling a lot of emotions in my cock. Then was the time that it actually started getting big and rising and becoming more expressive.
So that was the first step to where I really started embodying my cock. Everything after that has been one thing after the other, but that was the most pivotal thing.
An interesting thing about that is that whenever my wife is crying—because she is not here; she will be coming to me in two weeks. She’s been gone for almost two months now—but whenever we’re talking and she has an emotional release, he gets hard. And it’s because he’s saying, “Okay, this is my territory. I can handle this. Give it to me.”
This is coming from maybe the alchemical cauldron thing that we do, exchanging energy. Exchanging energy has always been very natural to us. We’ve always been able to exchange light energy, even if we’re far away. She’s in the US right now, and I’m here. Every night, we exchange energies before we sleep. We go to each other, hold each other, cuddle with each other, do all those things.
So yeah, when she has this big emotional outburst, he gets hard, as if taking full responsibility. And oftentimes, what Carla has done from a distance is send all her feelings to him to be transformed, and they’ve gotten transformed.
KIM: Wow.
PRACARSH: So that was another crazy experience to realize. He’s taking on so much responsibility now, and I don’t have to always speak so much or do all the conversation, which I’m also good at. But I don’t need those things now.
In fact, my cock needing me makes me feel very strong. Talking doesn’t make me feel as strong as saying nothing, and things still are happening.
KIM: I love all of this. How else would you say that you have defaulted to or allowed your cock to take the lead in your life and your relationship?
PRACARSH: One of the big things that I’ve also been feeling is that my hardness is my direction. My erection is my direction.
When I’m hard and strong, I’m usually doing something that is aligning with me. Now my cock has become like a reflection of the life I’m leading. When I’m sad or not able to solve a problem or get into my head, I can feel that his energy is also low. He tries to help me, but I can feel his energy is also low.
But when I’m flowing, he’s also flowing. He’s hard. And so at least from the outside in, that is one of the reflections from my cock leading me.
And you can also take it the other way around. When I’m hard, it’s usually when my cock is also leading me. Directing me from the inside out. But right now, I think the observations that are coming to my head are more like I was doing something and then that made me hard.
It’s not just sex that makes me hard, of course, now. It’s a lot of things. Realizing that living my life fully, taking full control in the sense of how I choose to live my life, what boundaries I choose to make around my life for both me and my wife. What energies I’m allowing in. What energies I’m not allowing in.
All those things have become quite important for me to feel my strength.
KIM: Yeah. I love this idea that your cock is an affirmative. It’s affirming your direction and the choices that you’re making. It’s responding in real time.
PRACARSH: Exactly.
KIM: I use the word barometer a lot as a reflection of your truth. When you’re in alignment with that, it gets hard; it’s responding.
PRACARSH: Exactly, yeah. So today, I woke up in the morning, and I was feeling that I wanted to have sex. I thought, “Okay, maybe I’ll do my morning exercise and then talk to Kim.” But I said, “No, wait, I’m talking to Kim. What’s the best thing to do in the morning to underpin the energy of this session?” So I said, “Okay, let me be with him. Let me circulate energy. Let me give him some love.”
Doing that also elevates my day. Just masturbating the way I’m supposed to and giving him a lot of love. Receiving what he has to give me, circulating the energy all throughout my body, again, is something that elevates me.
KIM: Doing breathing practices, like a conscious self-pleasuring practice. It’s like the opposite of what people generally think of as masturbating. You’re just jerking off to get to orgasm as fast as possible, to get that burst, that momentary hit of pleasure.
We’re cultivating something. You are harnessing and tapping into this energy and generating it as a quality that you can then use internally during your day.
PRACARSH: Yeah, exactly. I think I had a very negative relationship with masturbation, where I was masturbating sometimes watching porn—that was before I met my wife—and doing all those things. Every single time I would masturbate, I would look at my come and think, “Shit, I’m killing myself. I’m killing my children.”
I would feel it so strongly, and I would feel almost an existential exhaustion, like my life force was draining from me, but it was a very vicious loop that I had put myself into just by not feeling the love that was already within me.
Yeah, so whenever I would masturbate before, it was just draining my life force. Killing me and killing my children. That’s what I was doing.
I was realizing this, but not able to stop it because the self-love wasn’t so present in me. I was lonely. I was a lot of things, and that’s fine.
One of the things that happened before I met my wife— although I’ve known her for a long time, but before we physically met last year—was that six or seven months before that, I started praying actively for my own strength and for my own love to shine through.
I was trying to achieve some mastery within me, of myself, so that could also be reflected outside in my relationship.
I was praying for my life partner, honestly, in a sense, and she came. It was unexpected and magical.
That experience then also helped me in your course because I thought, “Wait, okay, anything can happen. Just be open. Be open to the unexpected and magical that you can bring about.”
KIM: Right. You can create your own reality. You can generate this. You did it in a huge way, which opens the door to being able to do it in anything.
PRACARSH: Exactly. We are already very solar creatures. We create our own reality. That has also been a perspective that helps me align fully with your course.
KIM: What else would you say about the circumcision healing? As you were in this conscious relationship and then you heard me talk about the detrimental effects of circumcision scarring and energetic scarring, what did you notice more about your cock blossoming? Obviously, what you’ve already described is having this very connected, even sentient, intuitive relationship with your cock, but what else did you notice happening as you went through these exercises?
PRACARSH: The other thing I very powerfully started noticing, Kim, was that more energy started flowing. As the circumcision scar was healing, it was becoming softer. It was becoming softer and softer and softer. Carla would tell me, “See? This has become so soft. It used to be so stiff.”
I think that really opened whatever must have been there. I don’t know. We can call it whatever, but experientially, energy started flowing.
Earlier, whenever I would be nearing orgasm, the energy would be concentrated there and not flow somehow.
But after that, I felt the energy so strongly in my stomach and my chest and then going up. Definitely, healing that scar tissue clears up the energy in your body and you experience energies more clearly. That is why I think my cock grew. There was this thing that was keeping it down. It opened up, and my cock blossomed. Simple.
All these things, like any scar, any trauma, are stuck in some sense or the other, but it’s holding our energy back. Once you tend to it and somehow reintegrate it or something, I think it’s much easier for the energies to flow.
That’s the thing I experienced. As you were talking about massaging the scar tissue and doing all those things, I think that was incredibly helpful for me. Actually, we massaged not just the scar tissue on my dick, but all the scars we ever got. Even the small scars or fucking vaccine shots we got as children. We massaged all of them and felt the difference in how the body responds when you give any of these things love.
KIM: I love that because I think, yes, there’s obviously a physical component of injury, but there’s the whole energy of being violated in all the examples you gave. The notion of your partner, who loves and adores you, putting all this attention and compassion and love into these areas, and it would have, as you described, this alchemical shift. This multidimensional, emotional, mental, physical, energetic shift from those experiences. That is the ideal.
You referenced earlier the alchemical cauldron. This is a notion I talk about where couples can heal each other. They can elevate each other through a conscious exchange of their energy, and particularly their sexual life force energy; they can have epic, miraculous experiences that people might be surprised to hear about.
This is why I love sharing these things on the podcast; these stories of people healing themselves and each other and having these radical shifts in their lives that we can directly trace back to the alchemy of their sensual connection.
Tell me more about the growth of your cock then, because it is so delightful to hear you talk about this in the calls.
PRACARSH: Yeah. That was the most exciting thing, honestly. I don’t remember if I had a lingam massage session or just a regular sex date, but my wife was just giving a lot of love to my cock. She was licking it and kissing it and everything. Then she took it in her mouth, and she went totally in, and then she came out and said, “Wait, you have grown. Because it was hitting a part that it would not have hit earlier.”
I said, “Stop flattering me. I know you’re trying to make me feel better. Don’t do all of that. It’s fine. I’m comfortable with whatever size I am.”
But actually, Kim, it had grown, and I said, “What the fuck just happened?”
It was just before the polarity week when this happened. And I think when the polarity week happened, it was the best slap for both of us. Like a slap that aligns you to what the fuck are you doing?
Since then, literally every week, Carla will tell me that he is growing, either in length or in girth. We used an inch tape and measured it because we were being silly, and he has grown an inch and a half. I cannot give you the exact girth, but he has grown in girth also.
One of the other things that we noticed just before Carla was leaving for the US, on our last night—we had been struggling a bit because sex was overwhelming Carla a lot, so—
KIM: It was doing what to Carla?
PRACARSH: It was really overwhelming her. Penetration was overwhelming her and she was shutting down.
KIM: Okay.
PRACARSH: So I had the intuition that, “Okay, I’ll tie your hands. Because I feel you’re not trusting. You are trying to trust, but there is something in you that is unable to trust.”
So we just did an experiment. I tied her hands, and then we started making love. We also blindfolded her and started making love. She flared for the initial two or three minutes, and then she just let go. And that was one of the most powerful sex sessions we’ve had, honestly.
And in that sex session, my cock was massive. Afterward, we said, “Wait, what is this?” [Laughs]
So there is definitely something to also accentuating polarity, even as an experiment initially, because as you said, it takes some time to make it come into your subconscious so that you start behaving like that. But even as an earlier experiment, I think it really helps to show you what is possible in your body and what you’re actually aching for.
KIM: Essentially what you’re saying and from that experience, it’s showing you that the more you take on and inhabit your masculine energy, that not only excites your cock, but really reflects in the cock.
I use the phrases “inhabiting the cock” and “occupying the cock,” and I use the same words to talk about inhabiting masculine energy and occupying masculine energy. To see that parallel, the deeper you go into the masculine and really own that, the more the cock swells. It’s bursting at the seams.
PRACARSH: Exactly. In India, people say there’s a tree called camel foot. The leaves are shaped like a camel’s foot. And it’s usually good for the kidneys because it looks like a kidney. And walnut is good for your brain. Right?
If you bear these physical resemblances into what is good for you and how things are mapping onto each other, honestly, I feel like if your shoulders are drooping or if your back is hunched, you will have a small cock in the sense that you will not be occupying the full size that you can. It doesn’t matter what your full size is, but you won’t be occupying the full size.
If your chest is out and you have a confident posture, it’ll reflect in your cock. It’s very simple things, I think, that can be barometers as to where you are and what you need to do.
I had the intuition during the course that I needed to start some physical exercise. So I started doing this and that even helped me align more with what I was wanting to feel inside.
And for me, exercise is a spiritual practice. Lifting weights is like holding balance, holding strength, building flexibility; all those are very direct reflections of what I will feel on the inside.
KIM: Yeah. I think that metaphor in the subtle things of how we’re occupying ourselves extends, especially for men, into the erection.
Do you know the word exorcise in English? Exorcism.
PRACARSH: Yeah.
KIM: To push out demons. People have made this parallel between exercising and doing that. You’re pushing out negativity; you’re pushing out the demons that might haunt you within. As someone who is really passionate about movement and exercising, it’s so essential, and the bonus is that you stay fit. But for me, the core reason is that level of cleansing that you get. That wipes the negative away and puts you in a really solid, positive frame of mind and body.
PRACARSH: Yeah. It puts you out of your head. And that’s the best thing that could happen to us.
KIM: Yes. 100% agree with that.
Is there anything else you want to say about your intimate life, your relationship, your cock?
PRACARSH: Yeah. I asked my wife yesterday, “Is there something you want me to talk about that you experience in me?” She gave me a long list. [Laughs] But I’ll share one thing.
When she was making love to my cock, she also said, “Your cock and your balls are different beings.” And she would see these psychedelic, swirly patterns that my balls would make when they would expand or move. Energy patterns that we actually often feel inside of us when we’re meditating or something. But these very swirly patterns.
So one thing that has helped me in my relationship is an understanding of meditation. I’ve been doing it for some time now. My mother initiated me into it. That really helped me understand all these experiences and how energy was flowing. Through all these energies flowing, we could make sense of a lot of things that were happening inside of us.
So yeah, but one thing we realized was that the balls have a very different energy. The dick has a very different energy. They’re together, but they’re also their own people. They also need their own attention in some sense.
KIM: Did she describe any perception of the qualities of the energy of the balls?
PRACARSH: We extrapolated from that a little bit, but not really. We didn’t particularly talk about it.
I really like it when she also tends to my balls. It’s a very different experience from her getting into my dick. One thing that works in our relationship is the individual tendings that we do. Her breasts have a very different energy, of course, than her pussy.
She was saying that my balls, the psychedelic energy, was something like what she feels in her breasts.
KIM: Right. They’re both orbs. Right? Spheres, orbs of energy, yeah.
PRACARSH: Yes. Those things were interesting to see. And then one can make a lot of connections to them. I think these things are building a visual practice of your body, finding all these connections, and just being able to talk in this way. My balls can talk to her breasts. Her breasts can talk to my balls.
To us, it serves the purpose of increasing our nonverbal communication.
And the other thing, Kim, is that now her pussy and my dick talk. When they’re near each other, they just talk. And they don’t give two fucks about us. [Laughs] They say, “Let us be.”
KIM: [Laughs] Can you describe that a bit more? How do you know they’re talking? How did you put that together? How did that feel?
PRACARSH: Well, because it is responding. Hardness and wetness are one way, and a very strong way, of course, in which they respond to each other. But sometimes, in our head, we want to do one thing, but they want to do a totally different thing.
Let’s say we want to just penetrate and have sex and they say, “No, no, no. No, no, no. None of us is there yet. What are you two doing? Just calm yourselves down. Align yourselves more with us and listen to us.”
One of the things that was happening earlier was that my dick, when I was penetrating my wife, was saying no to me. Initially, I was not able to perfectly understand it, but what we went through in your course, being more alive and present to that, I really understood.
I realized, actually, right now, sex is not the calling. There is something else that needs to be tended to. Maybe there’s a block at whatever level. Or we are hiding something from each other. Or we felt something throughout the day that we haven’t expressed.
Literally, it’s what you say; when you come together at whatever part of the day, you’re carrying the rest of the day with you. All that energy you’ve built up is present there.
Now it’s more important for us to be clear in that energy, to be perfectly aligned to each other, and so we do the thing that we need to do. We don’t have this mechanical routine with this much time in foreplay, this much time in sex, but we surrender and see what needs to be done. What is the sexual act that is coming forth through us?
That has become very important for both of us. Even though there are days when we’re not having sex, and sometimes it’s because we’re genuinely becoming lax, oftentimes it’s also because we’re very aligned and know not to do this, because it will cause more harm than good right now.
KIM: Did you both evolve around the same pace into that? Because what you’re talking about would be pretty important for both people to be on the same page. Because one person could say, “What do you mean your dick is saying this?” rather than, “Okay, yeah. Then what’s my yoni saying? All right. We’ve got to listen to these things.” Was that a pretty even pace of development for the two of you?
PRACARSH: I don’t know outside of us, but we are both mirrors and reflections for each other. Let’s say it starts happening with my wife. And let’s say at that moment I’m not there. But very soon that will reflect in me, and I’m there.
So it’s a very strong back and forth for almost everything. Right now we’re going through this whole unraveling of our families. Me in my family and she in her family. Both of them are collapsing. It’s like a holy war formation.
It’s often parallel. It happens with me, then it happens with her. Or it happens with her, then it happens with me. But the way we take it is that, as you said, it’s you, the other, and the relationship.
Both you and the other contribute to the relationship. When we contribute to the relationship, the other person can take it because it’s also being offered to them and then respond the way they need to. And our responses are a barometer that we’re committed to each other. If there is no desire, there is no response, then I feel like that is usually a red flag.
KIM: Yeah. I think the closer and more connected you get, the more blocks you clear. You have this telepathic communication happening. The way you described your genitals speaking to each other and you read these subtle shifts within the other person, physically, emotionally, mentally, again, the more that you’ve focused on remaining close and have practices that keep you close, those things register very quickly within the fabric of the whole relationship.
PRACARSH: Yeah, Kim. Exactly. That’s like when she’s feeling something, even as she’s in America, and she really needs me; she only needs to remember me, and I’ll wake up at two in the morning spontaneously, check my phone, and she sent me a message one minute ago. Then I’ll call her.
Once when she was traveling, she was having this massive emotional breakdown, and my dick came to her. I was very pleasantly sleeping, and then she woke me up and told me. But she literally felt my dick with her, helping her through the process.
KIM: That’s beautiful. That’s a very high-level way to be operating and the ideal in a relationship.
Tell me more about you coming into your masculine energy, into your cock, and how else that’s transformed in your outer life, with you as a man, expressing yourself out in the world.
PRACARSH: In India, I live with my parents. It has its problems; it has its beautiful things. But that is usually the context here. You live with your family, with your parents. Even after you’re married, you’re still living in the same house.
The problem was that my relationship with my father was very weak because I was very weak. Since I was not inhabiting my masculine, my manhood, I always felt like he was this oppressor father force upon me.
But he was not being oppressive. This was all me. I was creating the oppression within me, honestly. Inhabiting my masculine very drastically, Kim, has made me talk to him man-to-man. I have the full confidence to talk to him as an equal. He’s still my father. That relationship is alive.
But I’m also a man now. I’m also fully inhabiting my manhood. I’m not a baby. And so we talk now. And we have very beautiful conversations, but it has happened because I feel so confident in myself that I cannot be oppressed. No one can really oppress me or cage me.
Earlier, I was in full victim mentality. “Oh, my father is like this. He does this to me, or my mother is like this. They do this to me, and then I feel like this. That’s so bad.” And I would paint them negatively or whatever.
Now it comes off as two things. Either I don’t assume that I’m being oppressed, so I stay in a place because I’m generally right with the place, or I move to a different place, because I’m resetting my boundaries. It’s very simple now. Wherever I am, I am choosing to be there.
It makes me feel very masculine in some sense to say that I am here because I am choosing this. No one else is choosing this for me. If I have to move elsewhere, I just need to say it to myself, make that boundary, and then move. It’s fine.
That is a very strong way in which it’s reflecting in my life. My relationship with my father has definitely improved. Right now I’m building a house for my parents, and I have to spend time with a lot of laborers. There needs to be a certain level of command that you need to have to handle all of that.
So earlier I would go to this house that we’re building, and I would feel a little bit weak or like, “Okay, how do I tell them to do this?” Or something would go wrong and I would be shit scared. “Oh shit, how do I take care of this now?”
Now I think, “Great, let’s go. What can be done?” It’s a very let’s-go attitude. “Fine, this happened, okay. What can we do? Okay. Let’s do this.” Which is also the attitude my father has. He’s a businessman, and he has that attitude.
Now to feel that within me, I just feel like, okay, okay, okay, this is what it means to begin to feel how you lead your family. To have that strong level of command, to have that strong level of centeredness, to not be a tyrant. To not fucking shout at people or something. To be centered in yourself, but also to be really commanding. To have a very strong, commanding presence that people, just by looking at you, say, “Okay, we cannot take advantage of this person. It’s immoral to take advantage of him.”
That presence is what I’m building right now, and it’s really showing in the work I’m doing and how smooth my life has been since we started doing your course. I’m very free. I’m not in my head. I’m just meeting things as they are. Adapting. Not feeling a resistance to adapt.
So two strong ways in which that’s reflected, yeah.
KIM: Fantastic. How about creatively speaking?
PRACARSH: So the house we’re building is a modern lime and stone house. We’re not using any concrete or cement. It needs to be very creative. Because we’re building it totally outside the construction system, there are no contractors. I’m the one handling the entire project. I’m the one designing. There are no architects. Every little thing, only I am taking care of it.
In that sense, since I’m doing this work, the house has increasingly become more beautiful, and more beautiful elements have come, which, honestly, Kim, would not have come. I would have gone for a very safe approach. I would have said, “Oh yeah, let’s just build a simple wall. Let’s not put anything there.”
Now we’re doing stuff that I couldn’t have imagined we would be doing. Being more experimental and feeling strong in that experimentation. Being confident that, okay, nothing can go wrong, and it’s fine. Let’s do this.
KIM: The way I look at that is you really open yourself. You have the vehicle of your relationship, and as you open more and more to each other, your heart opens, and your whole energy field opens. You open to the flow of life, to creation, divine inspiration, and it sounds like the way you describe it, ideas you could’ve never conceived of, you allow yourself to be receptive to this flow. You’ve aligned yourself with this flow via the vehicle, the tool, of your relationship.
Then that whole creative force is what you’re channeling in so many parts of your life.
PRACARSH: Yeah. Exactly. So my wife really wanted a bathhouse just for tending to her, and also we would like to birth there.
And building this bathhouse was seeming very intimidating to me. “How do I do this?” I would often wonder, “Will this align with my parents?” I would assume a lot of things. “Will they say yes to this?”
Now I just assume that it’s a yes all across. I lead with the energy that it’s going to be a yes. I don’t even assume that it’s going to be a no.
Because of that confidence, it’s very hard for them to say no to that. But more than that, they feel the beauty of the creation. They feel the creation speaking through me and not the doubt. So the creation is speaking through me, and it reflects into the creation speaking through them, which makes it about creation. The doubt speaking through me speaks to the doubt in them, which makes everything doubtful.
It’s simple resonance happening.
KIM: I love all of that. Is there anything else you’d like to add?
PRACARSH: One thing that also struck me very deeply is taking total responsibility. I would not even say 150%. I would say 150 million percent responsibility for my life. There were so many leakages in me, Kim, before the course, because I was not taking responsibility. I was not tending to this vessel that I am.
Taking responsibility is basically like tending fully to the life force that you are born with and you are supposed to look after; no one else is supposed to look after it.
Now, I’m not expecting things from my wife, like she will provide me this or she will provide me that. When she provides it to me, it’s a source of gratefulness. It’s a source of immense beauty. But I have to provide it fully within myself.
KIM: So radical responsibility. I love that a lot because we all know that’s a huge piece of my work. What I try to tell people is that when you take radical responsibility, you get your power back. That’s what you’re describing. When you’re waiting or blaming somebody else, or if they’re responsible, then you’re fucked. Until they fix it, what are you going to do? If that’s someone’s attitude, there is a huge energy leak because then you’re completely dependent on whether they do this or don’t do this and you have zero power.
But if you take responsibility, you have all the power back.
PRACARSH: Yeah. In India you export responsibility to your culture and society. I think that’s the downside of being in a place where culture is very traditional. It becomes mechanical. It becomes not the inside-out creation it’s supposed to be, but then you just listen to the norms, whatever is outside, and apply it.
One thing that has helped me in my country is to break away from that and to realize things truly as an extension of self-responsibility. It causes a lot of tension, but I think it’s very beautiful tension.
KIM: Causes a lot of tension how?
PRACARSH: With my parents. They say, “Oh, you don’t follow this. You cannot question a thousand years of …”
So all my life I’ve worked out a lot. I used to play a lot of sports. But I was a fucking stick all throughout. I was fit, but truly there was no muscle, and I was very annoyed. Right now I’m in a much better place, but I was very annoyed, like why am I not getting muscle?
One of the big realizations has been incorporating carnivorous food, non-vegetarian food, into my diet and the proteins and fats I really, really need. So the way we were eating was not vibing with me.
And in India there is this whole section of Ayurveda that says to eat veg. Even though there’s Ayurveda, clearly, a lot of people eat non-veg food; those guys would also eat fucking horse balls or something, but it’s a problem for my mother to even eat eggs, for example. Because they’re dead food. That’s what she says.
It’s not just her. It’s also a lot of conditioning speaking through her. Actually stepping into your masculine gives you a very clear idea of what you want to accept and what you don’t.
You can be living in a fucking tribe or whatever. You still stand for your principles. Inside out, not outside in. It doesn’t matter if you’re living a hyper-modern life or you’re living in a tribe. Right? You feel the force beating inside of you, and that will make you say yes to what feels correct outside and say no to what doesn’t feel correct. And that is the way in which I think we really build community or society. By also saying no to the shit, people just solidify and then apply it to their lives.
KIM: I love that. Once you get that inner clarity, all your direction comes from the inside out, even if it’s in contrast to everything you see around you—supposed facts that are thrown your way, a whole cultural wave of support in the opposite direction, but you still know what your inner truth and direction is, and you follow it. Huge. Huge thing to have. Yeah.
Well, this has been fantastic, Pracarsh. Thank you so much for sharing all this and letting us in on your world and experiences. I think it’s so valuable, and the way you talk about these things is so unique. So much appreciation for sharing it with us.
PRACARSH: Thank you so much, Kim. I was so happy to receive the mail, not even for the interview, just because your energy is something that Carla and I like so much. I remember that when Carla spoke to you for the first time on the call, she said, “Man, that woman is something. I could feel it.”
You post a lot of stuff on Instagram, and you do a lot of marketing and everything, but ultimately it’s your energy that makes me fully certain that I can trust you. And to feel that trust is very nice, because then we’re able to surrender to you and your teachings, totally give in, and receive.
I was seeing in some of the Zoom breakout calls that sometimes people, because of their beliefs, because of whatever, are not able to trust, and that’s fine with me; that’s their own path. But they naturally block a lot of reception that can come their way.
I think your course, you designed it very beautifully, but it depends on the person trusting. If it’s really their life’s calling, if there’s really something there, inherently already knowing what to experience, you are the perfect catalyst for them, as you are for us. That was very beautiful.
I also want to pass on wishes from Carla. She keeps missing you, like, “Man, there are no classes anymore.” She’ll come back and actually redo your entire salon a little bit more slowly now. But yeah, lots of love from her also.
KIM: Well, please pass it back and my deepest gratitude for sharing with us. It’s really lovely to hear that reflection back from you. I appreciate that. Yeah, I think with any teacher, the more you can open up and trust them and follow their direction, the further you can go, presuming you’re in alignment with what they have to say. If people have a lot of self-arguments along the way, it’s going to slow them down. In my view, you either commit and jump in or get out. But to be in between, like, “Oh, well …” is just not serving anything. It just becomes a place of limbo and stalling. Shit or get off the pot. You commit or you get out.
PRACARSH: Exactly. I think, ultimately, a pure person who takes your course from a place of alignment will get all the things. If they take it from some other place, things will still happen, but they’ll be in that weird limbo in between.
KIM: All right. Keep us updated. Please feel free to send any messages with updates. I’m sure they’ll be amazing. We love to hear.
PRACARSH: I will. Of course, Kim.
***
My Sexual Mastery for Men Salon is open for registration and begins next week. Find out what it’s like to be a supercock in bed and in life. In my premiere guide to all things sexual for men, you will learn how to occupy your masculine power in life. Cock lengthening, strengthening, and pelvic weightlifting exercises to super-size and increase your and her orgasmic pleasure. How to boost your sexual stamina so that you are able to go the distance with her. The full Orgasmapedia for women and techniques for how to get her into G-spot, squirting, and cervical orgasms. Daily practices to open your woman and keep her sexual simmer going. And so much more.
To register, go to KimAnami.com/stamina.
