My Cervix is My CEO – Transcript
Your pussy ought to be making ALL the decisions in your life.
From matters of the heart, to business investments, pussy knows best.
The big question is: Does it turn you on?
In addition to your brain brain, you have your heart brain, and your gut brain.
You also have your pussy brain.
I’d say it’s the most powerful, intelligent and truth-accurate than all of the others combined.
Why?
Because it connects you directly to a source of wisdom that bridges dimensions, giving you you access to other realms of consciousness.
But…ONLY when you are well-fucked.
If you’re sexually repressed, or if you think your clitoris is the be-all, end all, then your antenna are going to be flawed.
Your decision making apparatus will be all askew.
You’ll be one of those people complaining about how “the narcissist was so clever” and they “tricked you for years.”
How you always choose the wrong men.
How you are stuck in poverty.
Why?
Because you’re stuck in sexual poverty.
Both by being:
1) Underfucked in general.
2) Because you exist in the superficial domain of the clitoris.
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Most women have never even heard of cervical orgasms.
And that’s why most women are severely underfucked.
The thing is, these orgasms are about more than just technique.
If that was the only thing that mattered, everyone—at least anyone who even knows they exist—would be able to have them.
But they don’t.
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To access this spiritual and intuitive wisdom, you need to go deep and activate the power …of your cervix.
How do you think I’ve stayed ahead of the curve—well, let’s not be modest here—I’ve CREATED the entire curve of holistic sex and relationship coaching.
How do I constantly innovate?
How am I fearless in being first?
I’m connected to my cervix.
It’s the ultimate GPS.
When your self-actualized pussy is calling the shots, you:
- Make better decisions, guided by your highest self
- You unleash your full self-healing powers.In this episode, you’ll hear how Well-F**ked All Star Robin REGREW her thyroid and went off medication that doctors told her she would DIE without
Her whole system reconfigured itself and activated its own innate intelligence to ADAPT and HEAL.
Everyone can learn how to do this: It’s the crux of what I teach in all my salons.
Perfect health and quantum healing are possible for all.
IF you learn how to activate and master your sexual energy.
IF you get well-fucked.
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You also unlock your creative genius
You learn how to tap into YOUR unique gifts and YOUR unique voice and channel them out into the world.
Making art. And making money.
Because you are making orgasms.
But again: only the deep, life-changing vaginal orgasms count.
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A daily state of ecstasy becomes your default.
And, because like attracts like, you magnetize more bliss constantly in the form of people and opportunities who keep the bliss flow going
You do this is by mastering your sexual energy—and your cervical orgasms.
Today’s Well-F**ked All Star is Robin.
As I mentioned, she’s mastered profound levels of self-healing and her own unique creative expression.
And she gives credit where credit is due:
To her cervix.
Robin All-Star WFW
KIM: All right, amazing to have you back, Robin. How are you?
ROBIN: Happy to be here, as always. Been in Anami-land for a few months now. [Laughs]
KIM: A few years, actually.
ROBIN: Yes, yes. But we’ve been on a good stream.
KIM: Yes! We interviewed you back in 2021, perhaps? Yeah. And you were talking about your relationship with your yoni and the high level of intercommunication that you have. Let’s hear what else has been happening for you and some of the key current shifts in transformations that you’ve seen.
ROBIN: Well, all those years ago, I mean, if you’ve listened to the first podcast with me, I definitely came into this with all the slew of issues, feminine issues. Never had a cervical orgasm, very disconnected, numb, thinking I was having a great sex life, but I had no idea. I didn’t even know that you could touch a cervix. Nobody said cervical orgasm to me.
Thyroid no more
When I first started working with you it was definitely a physical gain. I was looking for like a physical shift. I had been ill. I had Hashimoto’s for 20 years. During, I think actually after—no, I guess it was right before I’d had Lyme’s and then I’d lost my thyroid, it was completely gone.
So I came in pretty sick and it was definitely like this whole lifechanging, I needed to change everything. I need to discover; I needed to figure out what was going on with my body. So that’s where I started and it took both of the women’s salons over a year to finally get a cervical orgasm. It takes patience and perseverance and surrender, honestly. That’s probably has become one of my most powerful mantras and words through all of this work, is surrender.
What is surrender?
KIM: And what does that mean to you, to surrender?
ROBIN: Originally, it was just surrendering to my husband physically. I’m not really afraid of anything sexual, but it was like whether it was him finally reaching and touching my cervix and allowing that to happen and allowing all of the physical sensations, the tears to flow, and not resisting, not trying to be something or somebody in the bed, that’s where it started. Then it just kind of stretched everywhere.
It really has changed my life, like as far as having self-confidence and trust coming from my vagina and coming from that connection and reawakening my own feminine power, it just allowed me to start surrendering, whether it was my art, which is my work, with even just the day, where the day might lead you. Obviously, we live in a culture where there’s X, Y, and Z to be done, but being able to be more connected to the unseen realms, surrendering to voices and hearing and guides and nudges, if you will, that come from places that I think I was numb to before because I wasn’t connected.
It’s just kind of all gone back to—and opening the cervix really is a key and you’ve said it before.
The cervix cannot lie. But the clitoris can.
Like you can’t—your clit can lie but your cervix can’t lie. Once you open that and you surrender to it, it changes your life like really deeply
and I’m super grateful for that shift.
KIM: When we say your pussy is your CEO, your chief ecstasy officer, what does that mean to you?
ROBIN: It means that you always answer back to that—I mean, she will not lie. Everything that is created from that place and it was interesting when I first started doing work with you, it was like there was this of me, having a conversation with my pussy, like it was almost like this two separate identities and over the—
KIM: When you say that, just because you’re gesturing, you mean this is your brain?
ROBIN: Like my brain, yeah. Yeah. Like my ego, my identity. This is Robin, and then I have my pussy. Robin is talking to my pussy. Almost like my pussy is like this whole other identity in a way.
But I have to say that in the last like year or so, my body is finally merging more with my identity. Like I don’t feel any separation anymore. It makes me realize how much—like they say that most of our health problems start in our gut and I don’t even know that it’s necessarily gut, but I would say that it’s those first three chakras that most humans are like separated from. It’s our creative source, it’s our internal energy and our power and our sexuality, and it all is coming from down there.
A lot of times when people start to find their faith or their religion or their job in life or whatever, it’s such a high chakra thing. It’s up in your mind and it has no like foundation. When I first started speaking, if you will, to my cervix and my pussy, it was more of—like it was like my higher chakras were speaking to my lower chakras, but with all of this work, there’s like a full conversation now.
My pussy is in control
I realized that my mind is not the one in control and my heart is not the one in control. It is my pussy. That is where we started. We came from a vagina on this planet. We like dropped down on this planet and it’s where the spark of creativity, of like what it means to be an earthling here is. We should be having that conversation first and then she can direct and say, “Yo, heart, how do you feel about this emotionally? Or mind? Maybe you need to clear out some cobwebs in there or something.” [Laughs]
KIM: And you know what’s interesting, is even within that chakra system, this idea that the lower chakras are more base, earthly, animal instincts, and then the upper chakras are more superior, more advanced, and there’s this idea of energy going from the base up to the crown, but I think what’s woven into that and what becomes deceptive for people is this association with sex as a coarse pursuit, the animal urge, instinct, the lower parts of us. All of this verbiage that is deliberately painted over the truth of our sexual organs as these portals into other dimensions. Like the way we talk about the third eye or the crown chakra as portals into other dimensions that, especially for women, as the literal channels for this new energy and new life coming through into this plane of existence, that this is a huge portal.
If we didn’t have this concept and association that’s constantly being bombarded into us, pelted into us, of sex being dirty and shameful and gross and taboo—well, gross but also lustfully pleasurable—that people would see this as what it truly is. What I’ve often referred to it as the fountain of youth, as this portal of energy into creative lifeforce. As the ultimate channel.
The cervix and the crown chakra
Then we know that in cervical orgasms there’s a direct connection between the cervix and the crown chakra. There’s an energy portal channel, chakra system goes right up there, the vagus nerve starts there and goes all the way up to the top of our being. Women often have phrasing, like when they’ve had these deeper, cervical orgasms, like they felt at one with the universe, they saw God, they were completely reborn. All of this spiritual terminology to talk about this supposedly lower-level experience.
I feel like that is my mission in my work is to unveil the truth of what our sexual energy really is and not the lies that diminish it as something throwaway, coarse—which it can be that, but its real home, its real nature is sacred and high level and transformative.
ROBIN: Yeah. Really. And it’s really unfortunate because I do feel like it’s strangely intentional to block that from us.
KIM: Very. Unquestionable. It’s intentional.
ROBIN: It’s interesting because I really resisted any sort of faith-based spiritually. I felt like it was very artificial because nobody was recognizing the sexual nature of our being.
Honestly, that is our gift of being alive on earth. Without the body and the sensations and the senses of beauty and union with another human being and channeling that, like what the hell is the point? No?
I mean, especially now, like once you can find those—obviously you found that at a young age, but to have gone so long with thinking that I was having a great sex life and then seeing how much it shifts your life once you truly do find that, find that deep, deep cervical truth, basically, finding the truth in there, yeah, it is heaven on earth.
KIM: How is that different when you went from what you thought was good sex and then having cervical orgasms? How would you describe the difference and what that did for you?
ROBIN: Oh, my gosh. The difference? I don’t even remember. [Laughs] That was six years ago. I mean, I talk about it sometimes. I’m like, “Man, what was I thinking or what was I doing?” It was like it was a release. It was like a little release. You’re like, “Ah.” I mean, my clit was very active. I could get myself to come like seven times in a row, but they were all like, “Ah. Ah.” [Laughs]
It’s crazy. I’ve actually been like really—I’ve been really trying to like unify all three orgasms at once. Like have a clit, G, and cervical at the same time. I’ve achieved it a few times where it’s just like—it’s almost like your body is like no longer a body. I don’t know how to describe it. There’s no difference between my vagina and his cock and the shit that I am visualizing, I mean, after like a real session, I’m like, “That changes the world somehow. Like if there’s a butterfly effect anywhere, that’s doing it.” Like no joke, feels like the earth kind of shifts axis. Like every sensation is alive.
It does take a lot of practice, the breathing. My husband’s actually better at it than me and over the last so-many years that we’ve been working on it and stuff he can always bring me back to the breathing because I just—like I can just float away. I don’t even know if I need to breathe anymore sometimes. [Laughs] I’m just like, “Am I human?” I have no idea.
Seeing—and being—God through sex
I mean, the visualizations that I have, it’s like I ate like a whole bunch of acid or something. Yeah, you see God. Or you are God, kind of. I mean, like I wouldn’t want to say—
KIM: You see that you are God.
ROBIN: Yeah you are God. It is, all of a sudden, you are with God, and you are God, and that union, there is nothing like it. It becomes everything.
Like whatever happens to my cells, when I have a really, really good orgasm, I can channel that by just sort of looking at my husband or thinking about him. Honestly, even looking at nature. It’s a muscle that I really enjoy strengthening. [Laughs] For sure.
KIM: I love it. Tell me more about your creative process because you are an artist and you made a comment how every masterpiece you create is a direct flow from this yoni portal. Tell me more about that.
Creating art from the cervix
ROBIN: I’m an artist as my vocation. Like I actually sell clothing for mostly women. That’s been really amazing. I’ve been doing it for 17 years. If you were to like look at a portfolio of what I did in the beginning, compared to who I am now and what I’m doing, it’s humorous as far as you can see me throughout the whole story, but in the last—pretty much since I’ve been working with you and my cervix has started speaking so loudly, I really enjoy dressing women in art that means something deeply.
One of my designs last year was a seashell that opened and it was like with a pearl on the inside and it had all of these geometric kind of lines, all white and gold behind it. Women were like, “Oh, this is so beautiful.” Then some people would ask what it meant farther and I was like, “Well, the lines and the geometrics are the masculine and if the masculine is aligned and centered, it allows the feminine shell to open. And if the shell is open and surrendered, it allows the man to align.” I had some great conversations with people about that. The men would be like, “Oh my god, babe, you really should wear this.” [Laughs]
Yeah, all the art tells a story. When I first started doing it, I would lay down in my studio and I’d pull out my yoni mirror and I’d speak to her and be like, “What are we going to create now?” I don’t even need a mirror at this point. I mean, sometimes I do, but just for fun. But yeah, I go down and I create my sacred space and call in my guides and my guardian and we create.
Telling customers they need a cock in the ass and/or throat
I’m having a therapy moment with women who come into my booth, and they cry and they share their deep secrets when they start telling me about their female issues. I’m like, “Well, have you ever heard of Kim Anami?” [Laughs] “Or have you ever heard about deep throat?”
KIM: You tell them that they might need to deep throat?
ROBIN: Yeah. Or anal. [Laughs] That one’s a little more sensitive for people. [Laughs] People are like, “Holy shit.” But they love it. Then all of a sudden, they’re like really deeply talking about it. I wouldn’t throw anal at just anybody. That’s a special kind of woman. But the deep throat and a lot of people that know me and that collect my stuff and have watched me grow and watched me when I was really sick six years ago and then I grew back my thyroid and everybody wants to know how I did it. “How’d you do it? How’d you do it?”
KIM: What do you tell them? What would you say you did?
Getting her voice and thyroid back
ROBIN: I mean, if I was talking to them face to face, I would talk about deep throat and the return of my voice.
And I did everything to get healthy. Changed my diet. Changed my way of thinking. Did acupuncture every week. I did so many things.
But the deep thing to me was the cervix and surrender and deep throat. Then my journey—and it kind of happened. Every doctor told me that if I got off thyroid medication, I would die. Like I was on a full dose. I actually was on full like—and I tried all the different kinds. I was on the—you know, it was for 20 years. 25 years. I was on two different kinds. I was on one for—it’s called Cytomel and it’s to help you like transfer or active or whatever. Those are all the details of the thyroid. But a lot of women have that issue. Like it’s an epidemic, thyroidism.
Everybody told me that I couldn’t do anything, I couldn’t fix it. Then I finally went to a doctor who was like, “I don’t believe that.” And my medication, it was seeming like I was like hyper. I was like, “How am I on a full dose if this is—or how am I becoming hyper if I need a full dose of medication?” He’s like, “I don’t know, maybe you’re growing it back.” I was like, “Do you believe in that?”
So I went to my endocrinologist and asked if she could do another ultrasound. She’s like, “Don’t waste our time. We’ve already seen you have no thyroid.” She’s like, “You cannot grow back a thyroid.” So rude. She was like, “You’re just wasting our time.”
I went back to the doctor that said it’s possible and he was like, “Screw that, I’m going to get you one in another hospital.” Yeah. I went in to get the ultrasound.
I’d actually, bizarrely, relistened to a psychic call that I’d had like a year before. On the way there I had listened to the call. The woman was talking to—I mean, if you believe in this kind of thing—she was talking to my dad. She said, “Your dad will come to speak to you through butterflies.” Then I pushed it on pause. This was a year after I’d had the call with her. I put it on pause, went into the hospital, I’m laying there. She’s doing the ultrasound on my neck. I’m laughing, trying to make a joke out of it. I was like, “Do you hear a heartbeat?” She’s like, “You’re having twins!” And I was like, “No, but seriously, do you see anything?” She’s like, “Well, I see your thyroid.” I was like, “What do you mean you see my thyroid?” She’s like, “I’m scheduled to look at your thyroid.” I was like, “I know, but…” and I pop up.
She’s like, “Do you want to see? See the butterfly right there?” And I like burst into tears and I was like—she’s like, “It’s not the healthiest one I’ve ever seen, but it’s right there.” I was like, “You’ve got to be kidding me.” And I had seen the last one. There was like a little tiny piece of scar tissue left where my thyroid was.
I went outside. As soon as I walked outside it started raining and I was just like, “Oh my fucking god.” It was just one of the most beautiful give-back moments to myself. I was like, “Anything is possible.”
Consequently, the same doctor that was the suggested to me bioidentical HRT. Because I was starting to have—
KIM: The same doctor? Like the one who said you didn’t—
ROBIN: Not the endocrinologist. The cool doctor that got me a second—but he was still just a normal doctor. He had had the opportunity to meet two women that had grown their thyroids back in his practice. That’s why he believe in me for that.
KIM: Was yours cut out or what happened to it?
ROBIN: I had Hashimoto’s. No one told me that you could get end-stage Hashimoto’s.
I was so sick for a year. This was the year before Covid, and it was right after my dad had died and I had been through complicated grief. I had taken care of him for two years and then six months later, I swear it was my dad that came in a tick and bit me in the ass and saved my life. Because I think I needed a U-turn. Like I needed a 180. I think that had I stayed in the same direction, I would’ve—I’d be on HRT right now for sure and still on all thyroid medication.
It took me—I found all sorts of teachers. You were one of them. I was on the hunt of how do I get healthy? Because I had lost my thyroid I was losing weight. I wasn’t absorbing any vitamins and minerals. I was a wreck.
My endocrinologist was like—she was the first person in 20 years that said, “Listen, your diet, like you need to go gluten-free right now. I think you might be super—practically celiac, blah, blah, blah.” So I did immediately. Because 20 years people were like, “You don’t eat broccoli and tofu?” I was a vegan; I was so sick. I eat so much protein now. [Laughs] Like my husband, besides shoving his cock down my throat, he also shoves a lot of meat down my throat. [Laughs]
KIM: Meat in every form. We love it.
ROBIN: In every form, I’m a meat eater. But yes, so I had lost my thyroid due to Lyme’s. I mean, that was the end stage, was the Lyme’s. But I was on a path of just not being healthy.
Speaking the truth to heal the throat chakra
KIM: Then you mentioned your voice. How do you see that correlation because the idea of any throat issue we could say the symbolism there is someone not speaking up, not speaking their truth, swallowing their truth, and that usually, when I’ve heard any stories where people have reclaimed some kind of throat issue, that’s part of the journey.
ROBIN: Yeah. I never thought that it would lead me there. I was very insecure about my voice as a young girl.
KIM: Not liking the sound of it? What do you mean?
ROBIN: My mom had made fun of me as a kid for being so off-tune. [Laughs]
KIM: Singing?
ROBIN: Singing. And my sister has an incredible singing voice. My mother is such a sweetheart and loves me dearly and I’m sure she did not mean to, but as a child, I saw my sister with this beautiful singing voice, and I was singing Happy Birthday off key. So that started it.
I remember being shy about my voice and then dad issues and then my first boyfriend was abusive. Like a whole chain of events. People pleasing as a young kid to feel safe. Not being in a safe environment and trying to just make everybody happy around me.
What’s cool is after I miraculously grew back my thyroid and continued on the whole journey of surrender and surrender and surrender, I’ve been pulling more teachers into my life that I don’t think I would have before. Probably because of my inability to discern whether somebody was legit or not, made me kind of just be wary of anybody that spoke anything spiritual. I was like, “I don’t trust.” I’m very spiritual but I don’t trust spiritual teachers.
I fell in the lap of this woman last year who—she’s a sound healer, I mean, she does not like that word. She doesn’t like the word shaman or anything like that, but truly, I call her my spiritual doula. She’s like, “Robin, women that have thyroid problems usually end up working with sound and frequency because it’s like those conversations we don’t want to have. If you don’t want to talk about something, it’s probably the source of the biggest conversation you need to have.”
Just even being able to have these conversations with you, Kim, like 20 years ago, no way. No way. I’d be interested in it, but yeah, it opens everything. That’s why I love having the platform that I have, even though it’s very small. I’m not like a big business owner. I have a very small—I hand paint every single piece of fabric that goes on a woman’s body. I am my own personal sweatshop.
But every conversation that I get to have with women, that’s my voice and it’s a frequency.
And if I fix my cervix and have connected with my cervix, that frequency is coming through and it’s touching somebody else’s cervix immediately. Just like you’re doing and your platform is growing because women need this. We need it so desperately and we need it so that we can save men and masculinity because it’s on the brink.
KIM: Let’s come back to the HRT. Just to wrap up, I guess, the thyroid piece, so are you now, as far as you understand, generating your own hormones? Like you’ve reconfigured things?
ROBIN: Well, let’s go to the HRT because that’s part of that story.
KIM: Sure.
Moron drug dealer pimp doctors pushing HRT
ROBIN: I went back to that doctor and I had started—I was noticing mood stuff and just changes that I was like, “Oh, wow, I’m going through perimenopause. This is starting to happen.”
KIM: And how old are you now?
ROBIN: I’m 49 now, so this was 3 years ago. Yeah, about 3 years ago.
He was like, “Well, have you thought about bioidentical HRT?” He made a very big difference of like, “This is bioidentical, it’s not what you hear about in the movies, like dose you with a whole bunch of estrogen, blah, blah, blah. This is totally safe and you will feel like a million dollars.” I was like, “Yeah, I don’t know about one more medication.”
He’s like, “But it’s not really a medication. It’s just like your thyroid medication, it’s bioidentical. It’s just giving you what you’re missing.” I’m like, “Yah…” And at that point, I feel like I ran into somebody else that had changed her whole life. Like she was miserable and she had gotten HRT and she was like, “Oh my god, everything is better now,” blah, blah, blah.
He’s like, “I guarantee you’re going to love it. Just try it.” Like such a drug dealer, man. Such a drug dealer.
So I’m convinced now, “Gosh, maybe I don’t feel perfect. Maybe I will feel better.” I get this little—they call me up and it was this whole thing and they’re asking me all these questions, and it was the whole spectrum. It was testosterone, and progesterone and estrogen, and maybe even like one other one that I don’t even know the name of.
It was this cream that you dial it and you rub it on a different place, but then they were like, “Make sure you rub it on a different place every night.” I was like, “That’s weird. What’s bad about it to put it in the same…” Obviously, I’m slightly being triggered but I’m trying to just go with it.
“Going insane” on HRT
I do it for two weeks and lose my ever-loving shit. First of all, I felt the testosterone immediately. Honestly, I had taken the pill when I was like 18 for amenorrhea, or 17 or whatever, because I wasn’t getting my period. But nobody thought to talk to me about trauma or my eating habits. It was like, “Oh, get on the pill,” and I literally went insane and probably started the whole cascade with my thyroid.
KIM: Right.
ROBIN: I mean, I really believe that it’s just—and it’s, again, those are all like band-aid fixes. It’s these portals that we miss the mark.
KIM: Yeah.
ROBIN: If I had had education as a young woman about the beauty of my period and the beauty of that transition and my body changing and weight gain that’s beautiful and my ass developing, rather than being like, “What the hell is that thing behind me?” [Laughs] I was scared and so I stopped having a period. I had no conversation. Then they were like, “Take this pill.”
Anyway, so back to the HRT. I took it and I felt insane. I was like cutting down trees with chain saws and—
KIM: What do you mean felt insane? What do you mean by that? You said that a few times. What do you mean by insane?
ROBIN: The HRT made me feel crazy.
KIM: What does that mean for you, crazy?
HRT as a “shut up” muzzle drug
ROBIN: I was like angry, quick-triggered, like a weird kind of energy. But honestly, the thing that made me the most upset is I would say like on day 10 of trying it, I was like, “This is a shut-up drug.” I felt like I was going to get to the point where it was going to give me a lot of energy, like from the testosterone. I could identify the testosterone in my body, that it was giving me this like edge. I felt like I could run a marathon but fake. It wasn’t my natural vibe. It was like I was taking a drug.
I felt like if I kept taking it, eventually that was going to be my new norm and I was going to be able to accomplish, so to speak, more things, and cover up the actual real reason that maybe I was not accomplishing what I needed to accomplish, or something. It felt like a shut-up drug. I felt like I was entering the age of the Stepford Wives, of like, “Take this drug and be happy. It’s going to give you a sex drive. It’s going to make you want to clean the house harder. It’s going to make you want to get up and do your frickin—I don’t know, your Pilates class.”
I felt like it was so fake. I remember calling my sister because she and I are the kind of people that we finish all each other’s sentences and we never have to fully—and I called her and I was like, “I don’t know about this.” My husband was a little nervous of me just jumping off of it because I was still on the thyroid medication. He’s like, “Can you just go on and off this shit?” I was like, “I don’t know.”
So I was making myself doubt and I called my sister and she was like, “Stop saying you don’t know, Robin. You’ve been working on this to say you do know, and you know. Stop it. Just stop it.” I was like, “Oh, thank you so much.” I just felt my vagina go, “Thank you so much.”
Cold turkey: No more hormones. No more symptoms.
So I stopped it cold turkey and I didn’t tell my doctor. It opened such a door in me. You know how people are like, “Oh my god, HRT saved my life.” HRT saved my life. It was so bad and it gave me so much courage in myself to say, “Fuck that,” that I slammed the door on it and I was like, “Wait a minute. Isn’t thyroid medication just hormone replacement? They’ve been telling me this for 20 years, that it’s safe? Like what am I covering up? What am I doing to myself?”
I went back to that doctor and I said, “Thank you very much. That is does not interest me at all.” He’s like, “Well, you didn’t stay on it long enough.” I was like, “I don’t care. I have no interest in doing this.”
I then turned to him and said, “I want to get off my thyroid medication.” He’s like, “I’m proud of you.” I was like, “Good.” He’s like, “I would suggest, because you’ve been on it for so long, that you wean for three months. Do a half and then a half dose of that,” because I was on a full dose. I said, “Okay,” and I weaned for three months, went back to him—and also, during these 20 years, I was getting bloodwork every 6 months. They were taking my blood and telling me everything that was wrong with me. Every six months.
When I went back for that second time, he took my blood and I looked at him and I was like, “I’m going to be honest, I don’t really care what the numbers say because I feel incredible and I’m already on a half dose.” He’s like, “All right,” and he took the numbers. I am so educated now with all the numbers and stuff like that, that I read my own scans afterwards. I was like, “Well, I see that I’m healing.” But for somebody who was told that I was going to die if I got off this medication, I have energy, I’ve got my hair. I’m not gaining crazy weight. I was like, “Fuck it.” I just fully got off and it’s been a year. I haven’t gone back to him. I haven’t got any bloodwork.
I said to my husband, I was like, “Listen, if you notice like really bad signs, like blind spots—” like I have a 10-year-old daughter. I don’t want to just be stupid and be like I don’t believe I can survive this, and some days I have lower days where I’m lower energy, and I lie down. I take a fucking break.
It’s so interesting how the epidemic of thyroid is for women and we’re so disconnected, so disconnected with our bodies and our voices and our weight. I was one of those lucky Hashimoto’s humans that never gained a lot of weight. I never gained weight. I’ve always been kind of the same weight. But I am really fucking healthy.
I just turned around and said no, and that’s not for everybody, but honestly, taking that little moment with HRT, it gave me enough confidence to say, “Fuck that.” [Laughs] Now if I broke my leg, I would definitely go to a doctor. I’m not going to try to reset my leg or without a doctor. But for other things that are deeper, I really believe it’s in our power, like 100%.
KIM: Totally agree. That’s such an amazing story. I love that actually when you say the HRT piece was the catalyst to change your life by going on it, experiencing it, realizing how wrong and out of alignment it was, and then turfing it. That’s incredible.
So allopathic denying in the sense that one of their main narratives is that the hormone piece is—there’s no other option but to buy your hormones from the hormone store. Your body, the thing that makes them all the time, simply cannot make them in these cases, and you must buy them.
When we look at other systems of medicine, like let’s say Ayurveda or Taoism, Chinese medicine, they don’t even look at the orientation or hormones at all. That’s not even in the conversation. They have other ways of measuring health and wellness, but hormones isn’t one of them.
When they do use herbs, it’s to create an acute condition or to serve a chronic condition, but not to be on them for the rest of your life. That’s a distinctly Western medicine protocol that you must take these forever and ever, amen. There is no way you could ever just rebalance and heal your system. That’s just not possible.
Only in the areas that you actually referenced. A broken bone or stitching a cut back together, I mean, that’s a skill set I’ve taken advantage of. I’ve been pretty happy with the results, like, “You’re a good stitcher. Thanks for the stitching.”
But anything else, no, I wouldn’t even dream. Like I cracked a rib a few months ago and I didn’t go to the hospital, I didn’t get an x-ray. I mean, I know I cracked it and it’s like, okay, what do you do?
ROBIN: Well, and they can’t do anything for that.
KIM: Exactly. Unless it’s a bone that’s out of position, yes, they can reset that and I would go for that. But in this case, it was like, well, I’m not going to go dose up on radiation for you to tell me I have a crack, which I already know, and there’s nothing you can do for it. Now it’s up to me. It’s up to me to do the healing.
ROBIN: Which is so hard for people to take on. It’s hard. Self-accountability.
KIM: Right. Well, that’s the crux of all of this, isn’t it? It’s that you either—and that’s where so much of the resistance comes in. A few months ago I put up a post on my Instagram on why I don’t take HRT and the under-fucked orks just came a running. They were so angry. It’s like, “I didn’t come over to you and say, ‘Hey, you’re dumb because you take HRT.’ I’m just saying I don’t take it and I don’t need to take it.” But that was so offensive and so triggering and upsetting they had to—it’s like come over to my house and bang on the door and yell at me and tell me how wrong I was. It’s like, “Wow, you have a lot invested in this narrative and anything that threatens to break out this narrative you’re fucking clinging to dear life and ready to kill. You’re ready to kill to defend your position and not do this deeper inner work.”
I mean, I just honestly laugh and that makes a great opportunity for content making to screenshot these fucking morons and put them up as the perfect example of all these things.
ROBIN: It’s just so sad. It’s so sad. It really is so sad. We’ve been given such a fake story and I’m starting to really appreciate all the like—just like HRT, for example, it’s come in and it’s landed on us so heavily on women of this like savior. Things like that that are starting to peel back, they’re so in our face that they’re starting to make us question what’s real, and that’s the most important, is that we all just start questioning what’s real.
If you’re having cervical orgasms, you can tell when somebody’s being authentic. You can.
The cervix is the ultimate bullshit detector
If you’re having cervical orgasms or you’re like deeply in your body, you can tell what’s real and not and it feels—and what I just love about the work that you’re doing and I praise Bruce Lipton because he led me to you. I loved him so much and his voice and his authenticity and he’s so excited. He’s like the mad scientist that gets so excited about his like—and so I listened to that first podcast. I was like, “Who the hell is this chick?” Thank God somebody’s finally talking about this. I do not want to be a Buddhist and pretend that my genitals are not here. I want to be spiritual with my vagina.
Yeah. I mean, there are just those places that bring up so much defense and the orks, as you call them, how they get so upset. It’s because they’re sad inside because they need something external to cover up the facts that they’re not feeling deeply whole. I mean, if you want to do the work, it’s hard. Clearing the glass is fucking hard. The way that you teach it, it’s hard. But man, the rewards afterwards on the other side are so good. They’re so good. It’s so worth it for people.
KIM: The analogy that I use a lot is around the idea of getting fit. The lifestyle change that that requires of self-discipline, the way you eat, the way you move, the exercise, your own self-image. Because when people do destructive things, it’s because of a level of self-loathing. If you really love yourself, you don’t overeat, you don’t let your body get trashed.
But it’s a huge journey and it is, the hard part is developing that self-discipline, but then that becomes a way of life where now you exist on this higher level where it’s just a natural part of your day that you eat well, you nourish yourself, you engage in some kind of challenging movement. That’s just who you are now.
There might be some initial self-will to put those pieces into place when you’re tempted to go off the wagon and indulge, but you can also just get right back on it and keep going.
Hormone hoes and peptide pushers have no idea how to heal and no inner strength to
Yeah, that inner sourcing versus outer sourcing and I think the thing I find most disappointing in that whole movement, especially with so-called more natural practitioners, everyone from naturopaths to more integrated physicians, they’re all on the hormone kick. It’s very, very rare to find anybody right now who doesn’t support the use of hormones and peptides.
I guess, for me, the main message there is they have zero inner reliance. They have zero inner faith that their body is capable of reconfiguration of healing. Like look what you did. You did something that was completely defying medical logic as we know it by regrowing your thyroid. For most people that would just be—I mean, they could probably hear you say it and still be skeptical.
ROBIN: 100%, yeah.
KIM: Because it would go so against all that they hold dear and their excuses for why they can’t do such a thing.
Cervical orgasms as an interdimensional portal
I love all of this, and I think something else that you are talking about that really is a natural result of this, we talked about the connection of the yoni and the cervix with spiritual realms, but you said that this has really catapulted you deeper into your own faith and spirituality.
Tell us more about that because for so many people, sex and spirituality would be opposite sides of a spectrum and it’s only in these more ancient cultures and religions, like in Tantra and Taoism, where they’re actually united, we consider these things to be very close. That as always my intuitive experience as I came into my sexuality was that sex and spirit, this interdimensional portal, they were all connected. I mean, there was no evidence for that in my outer life in terms of “the church” which if you grow up in a Western culture that’s your main experience of spirituality, unless you have a family who’s had some kind of Eastern exposure.
But for most people, growing up in the West, it’s the Christian church and the place where their only connection to sex outwardly is basically fucking children. You’re not allowed to fuck women, but you can fuck kids. Apparently that’s okay.
ROBIN: So fucked up.
KIM: A lot of confusing ideology there about what’s really okay. Like what is the truth about these things.
Anyway, tell me how that’s impacted your spiritual life.
ROBIN: When you start to have conversations with your vagina, you’re basically having conversations with the unseen realm. It opened the door to me of like, “Oh, wait a minute. This has been silenced through women for a very long time.” It’s intentional and our ability to go into the dark and into the womb and into those unseen realms and follow our intuition and surrender to saying, “Yes, I know what is right and I know what is wrong.” I know HRT is not okay and no doctor can tell me.
I mean, I’m totally into herbs. I love tinctures. I love crystals, all of it. I don’t look these up in a book. I mean, I have tons of herbs in my pantry and it’s like, “Oh, today, I need lemon balm because my inner voice told me and that inner voice is coming from my vagina and my pussy church.”
Then to like share that unseen realm with your partner in union, I mean, I can take myself there, but there’s nothing compared to having that with another human being. To surrender into the knowledge and to call forth the masculine with your feminine is a power that is above and beyond anything. It is church.
Like when you see those…whatever the religion is where they speak in tongues and they like go into their crazies, like you should be having sex doing that. [Laughs] I mean, it is, it’s a trance. Like the things that I can see or witness or change, I feel like having sex is not just for me anymore, or my partner. I feel like it’s doing something to the world. I feel like we’re opening portals and allowing divine feminine and divine masculine come dance in our bodies. They give us amazing sensations but it’s allowing that portal to come down to earth.
I know that sounds a little woo-woo for maybe a few of you listening to this [laughs], but it gives so much more meaning to what we’re doing. It’s not just an orgasm. It’s not just being like, “Wow, I made a lot of money because I had a cervical orgasm or I healed a thyroid,” and I did do that and I do source a lot of abundance through my pussy.
God, it’s just so good. It’s so good. It’s a prayer. It’s like I find my deepest prayers in those moments, and it doesn’t have to be words. It doesn’t have to be praying for something. It’s just you are a part of that magnetic and electric spark that happens and it’s powerful. Yeah, that’s my church. [Laughs]
KIM: So beautifully said. I would say that’s the secret that an effort is being made to obscure and that’s why there’s so much emphasis on the cheapening of sex, so that people get distracted, and they think that’s what it is and it’s not really a worthwhile pursuit.
Whereas the way you’ve described it and how you’ve experienced it and our whole focus in Anami-land is to show people the way to get there. It is everything. It actually grounds you further into your body, into your spiritual self by connecting to this energy and holding it reverent.
I agree with you there’s a level you can access within yourself, solo, and I think it’s important to keep that channel open, but when you meet up and connect with a willing partner, a conscious partner, who’s also able to and willing to go deep with you. That’s where the quantum growth and healing and bliss and self-realization all happen in that space.
ROBIN: Yeah. It’s a gift, for sure. We’re really lucky to have like this human journey, for this reason.
Again, to go back to the solo, I feel like that’s what’s so important with your work. I feel like people need to do it solo. There’s so much that’s buried. I don’t think that I could’ve just healed everything with doing it with somebody else. There’s a lot of quiet work that needs to be done with your own self and beyond the orgasms. It’s clearing the glass with your own self so that you can be able to hold yourself accountable and release shame, and shame, it’s my trigger word with children now. Like especially having a daughter. If she ever says, “I’m embarrassed or ashamed,” my ears immediately perk up. I’m like, “Okay, this is where we need to speak.”
Because it’s so young and when you’re talking about like the way that it’s like intentionally blocking us and making us think that sex is dirty, I mean, that’s what porn is used for. It’s directed towards men and then they’re embarrassed and it’s usually pretty aggressive. Then their beautiful, fierce, storm of masculine power and aggression, which is gorgeous when it’s divine, has been shamed and transmuted and now you have all these men that are embarrassed to be men because they just are watching porn and I mean, it’s so sad to me.
I understand and I think that this generation of men, they have a lot of guilt and shame put on them from what their gender has done in the past. It’s kind of up to—I think men need to initiate but I think it’s up to us to really heal them deeply. Like with our connection to the unseen realm.
I think that our ability to like be open and surrendering and give them a place to rise as a man, but a man that’s a safe man. Obviously, you don’t want to be with a man who’s taking advantage of that.
My cervix chooses my man
But if you’re in touch with your cervix, you’ll know immediately if that man is right or not.
KIM: Such a good point because there’s this whole conversation out there in the dating world of people being confused and led astray and “That person presented themselves this way and it’s not my fault I got swindled,” and it’s like, “How do you not know?”
I guess I kind of take it for granted, but because I’ve been operating from the cervix for such a long time, I have such a good male radar, generally, that it’s like how do you not know that? I guess, okay, if they are operating only from the clitoral realm of existence, this very superficial place, then, yeah, they wouldn’t know. They would just be superficial to superficial relating, but if they really have that cervical, heart, spiritual connection activated within them, then it becomes your intuition.
We talk about these intuitive places, like the spiritual intuition, the heart intuition, and then we would add to that conversation the yoni intuition. If all those are synced up and they’re operating in alignment together, you have quite impeccable intuition and radar for things.
It’s kind of hard to go wrong. I mean, I think we all have our own blockages that might present obstacles that challenge us and we might get diverted on occasion because of that, we’re all human. We may not operate with complete impeccability all the time, but I think you get the message. The message will still pierce through your trauma, or blocks, or whatever, your walls, and then it’s up to us to be courageous enough to act and engage or leave or whatever.
But yeah, it’s such a big part of the narrative out there. “Oh, they were a narcissist and they were so good at hiding it.” It’s like, “Your radar is really off and it’s not just because you were abused, it’s because you’re not in touch with your cervix. You’re not in touch with your sensuality on a much deeper level than most people even think is possible.”
ROBIN: Yeah. And for those people that are on that journey, because I definitely had those few relationships where I got myself into situations and for years, I mean, like just—it’s funny, my first boyfriend I called “Beetlejuice.” His name is “Beetlejuice” because I don’t want to actually say his name because I’m afraid he’ll like pop up somewhere.
But I look back and I have gratitude for all of those. I have gratitude for my Lyme disease. I have gratitude for all those years of Hashimoto’s. I have gratitude for the abortion that I had that was one of the most traumatic grief sessions of my entire life.
If we can get to the other side of having gratitude for all of those and all of those bad relationships, if they led you to the point where anybody that has showed up at Kim Anami’s doorstep to learn because they had some bad shit go on, that bad shit was great and it actually led them right there. That is half or three-quarters of the healing process is being like, “Okay, cool. I had that for a reason, now why am I here? Now what am I going to do with that?”
Probably need to shake the shit out, but at least it gave you the stepping grounds to be—and even the people that—even if I was 80 and I was just coming here now, I’d be bummed that I didn’t have sex like incredibly all those other years, because it’s nice to have a young, vital body to have sex with, but just—yeah, the whole youth thing is overrated. No matter when it happens, it’s just so perfect.
I mean, I never go back and say, “Wow, I wish I was younger.” I wish I was younger knowing the stuff that I know now, but I didn’t. Right now I’m looking at 50 and my spirituality, I live through my vagina and my spirituality and that voice and I create art through it.
KIM: Is there anything else that you want to add that we haven’t covered?
ROBIN: It’s fun. It’s like really fun to like uncover it slowly. Our lives are really truly just little pieces of art, each of us. What colors do you want to play with? What do you want it to look like? It’s not that complicated once you start just following what you want to surrender to.
KIM: I love that a big part of your story is these conditions that you had and then you used those as stepping stones. Because for many people then, this idea of that victim narrative or “Well, this is my lot in life and I guess there’s no way out,” accepting defeat, where you’ve used them as pivots. Things that people have literally told you, “There’s no other way to do this than to be on drugs forever.”
I love that those instead became versions of wake-up calls for you, or attention-getting, which is what I think their purpose is. When we have really loud signals from the body, that’s what we’re meant to do is pay attention and discover, “Okay, what’s the meaning, the message underneath this, and how can I become cause, rather than effect. How can I take control of this situation and recreate it?”
ROBIN: Yeah. Thank you for acknowledging that.
KIM: Well, thank you for being here and sharing all of this. Very inspiring, Robin.
ROBIN: Thanks, Kim. Thanks for all the work and being the good leader. Appreciate it.
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Robin’s story is so telling for us all, women and men, we need to connect with our bodies and not surrender control to doctor, minister, parents. Thank you Robin for teaching self accountability through your life’s work and sharing it with us all! Much respect for you and Kim as well for giving us the strength to walk a different path! Bless you both??????